Candy Colours

we should thank whoever it was who invented underwear in more colours than white. it makes shopping all the more fun and exciting. really, i ain't joking. i mean, come..u could spend hours finding the colors that suit u perfectly, mix and match, or you could do it the easy way and buy those that come in pairs. even then, you would want to buy those that will match whatever outfits you want to wear them with. plus, it makes it very appealing to look at. you know, those guys out there might just start cursing if we so much as even look in the direction of a boutique. but it's all that time and money we spend that gets them attracted, and keeps their attention. they won't admit it, but it's true.

*sigh*

i'm in a rut. i feel like i'm in a rut. this nagging pain at the back of my head and it tugs on my heart.

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i was watching my dad roll his own cigarette with tobacco. then my mind ran back to sometime ago, as i was reminded of the time back when i was in kelantan.
it was at this old shophouse. the ground floor had an ice making contraption. kilang ais la. the upstairs was a small makeshift jamming studio and the adjoining unit was where the owner and his family lived. he has a live band that does shows around the area.
so i was at this place, must've been after one of their shows or practice sessions. we were all sitting down, with kopi o and ciggies, talking bout politics (yeah, typical..) and cerita hantu in the wee hours of the morning. then one of the guys whipped out a plastic bag and started rolling tobacco into the infamous 'rokok daun'. needless to say, i was intrigued and didn't refuse when i was offered one. initially they were sceptical bout letting a girl like me take one, but after one confident puff, all fears erased. they even rolled me a second. and the fourth one rolled with newspaper! that was shyte i'm telling ya. got woozy like hell then the guy said it's bedtime for me. i couldn't carry my own head on my shoulders.
so watching my dad just now that something just hit me. it wasn't just plain tobacco i had back then. i was fecking weed and i didn't even know it. those guys wouldnt just be carrying plain tobacco around, they've enough sticks for a horse. and i dont get woozy on cigs mind you.
my resolution to stay clear of that particular substance - dashed.
but at least now i know i can. hah.